The First Writing After You Left

Hi there,

Would you be kind enough to stop

And remember

What kind of person that you wanted to be?

To me,
For those moments

I wanted to be a good girl

For you

Then we were doomed

I was bleeding

So much it sucked up my energy

Into a big hole that is you

I was fallen

Into a dark path that is you

And I was trapped

Into a deep labyrinth that is you

My eyes were a waterfall

And still are

I stopped writing  

Cause I'm afraid there will be you

In my every stroke of pen

I stopped searching

Cause I'm afraid I can't be better to anybody else

And I know we should live in the present
And how to forgive our past
No blame taken

And I'm just here to cherish you

To heal myself

To search again       

And to start writing again
To living the life again

No matter how hard it is..


Yours always,

"Aruna"


Jakarta,
Circa July 2014