What am I doing exactly?
Love has never been this complicated?
Or does love has to be like this? If so,
then, what I had been experienced before was not love at all.
Seriously, if only I could surge your brain
and pull it out to read what’s on it, I would!
Deep down, we always know we will never
work out. But, somehow we keep on going.
I’ve been trying to make distance, but I
don’t wanna suffer. Though, I suffer anyway in order to maintain my feelings
when we are together.
I always amazed of how you can always get a
grip and push your feelings in. While I seem like always be that idiot who’s
longing for you every single day.
You said, you try to push your feelings away
so I could do that too and eventually also throw my feelings away. Now in reality,
it’s not working. So, what would you do to me?
I find it very funny to myself that I can
keep it going this far. It’s weird and almost a magical experience for me.
You know, I watch this movie a few times. There’s
a line in this movie and it says, “If there’s any kind of magic it must be in
attempt of understanding someone and sharing something”.
For me, this magical feeling of me towards
you might be the result of me trying to understand you and sharing things with
you. Vice versa. You’re also trying
to understand me and share things with me, aren't you?
I look forward and I see nothing but this grey thick misty road lie ahead upon us. I would really love to holding hands with
you and walk get through that thick mist together. But I’d be fine if you don’t
want us to even get started.
Truth is, I just don’t wanna missing out
knowing you. I’d rather be hurt like this than have to never find you at all.
I have no bitterness, really. A little bit
of obsession maybe, but I don’t have any hopes or agendas towards you.
When I decided to cherish every moment with
you, I meant it. I’m willing to take the risk, no matter how painful it is.
I’m sorry for being a train wreck. I’m
sorry if I’m too clingy.
Guess I’m just a hopeless romantic, an
expert of making a fool out of myself.
I promise to stop. I just don’t know when.
"I won't make excuses. They just all seem useless, you don't have the time. I guess I'll take my chances now that I know love is on the line" - Michelle Featherstone (Careful).
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xoxo,
